Wednesday, 24 June 2015

Real Talk: Mat Leave Thoughts - Month 2

My first day as a mom - so naive about the journey ahead!
As my second month of maternity leave is coming to an end, I feel it is important to reflect on the immense joy and the insane challenges that come with being at home full time. It seems that in a single day I can swing from loving my gig at home to wishing and wondering what is happening at the office. I don't want to give up a second of the time that I have with Henry but I can't help but wonder what the "old me" would be doing on any given day.

The pros of being at home are amazing and far outweigh the challenges but I feel it's important to share that life isn't a perfect Instagram snap and some days are really tough. For me, the hardest days are those where Henry has slept badly, won't nap, the laundry needs to be folded and I know my husband won't be home until at least 9 p.m. but most likely 11 p.m. I have to admit that on those days, I get into bed right after Henry does and just go to sleep, the best way to get a break and recharge.

Sometimes I get frustrated when Henry won't stick to our schedule or will fight me when I try to change his diaper but then I remember, he's my boss, at least for the next few months. My main job right now is to ensure I'm raising a happy, healthy and polite little boy. I need to learn to push away the guilt that comes with ignoring the laundry, cooking less than stellar meals and having clutter all over. 

Over the past few weeks, I have carved out some "me time" every single day and it has made a huge impact on my overall attitude with being at home. In turn, I think this makes me a much better mother and Mike would probably say, a much happier wife. I usually use my "me time" to work out while my mum or Mike stay with Henry but sometimes I'll go get a mani-pedi or just go for a walk. 

On days that I have no help with Henry I give myself permission to just veg out during his afternoon nap. Sometimes I'll read blogs, often I'll mindlessly watch TV and once I get my act together, I'll read. Henry's challenging time is between 4 - 7 p.m. so enjoying alone time during his afternoon nap gives me the energy and patience to enjoy our bath and bedtime routine. 

Best face in the world!
Once my sweet boy goes to bed, I get to revert to the "old me" which sometimes means going out but more often than not, it means putting on my sweats, making a cup of tea and watching TV, with the video monitor constantly by my side.

The past few months have taught me that no matter how much I try to fight it, becoming a mother has changed me in the best way possible and there is no turning back. Even on the most challenging days and trust me, there have been a few, I'm so grateful for the tiny tyrant who made a mom.

Any moms want to share their thoughts on maternity leave? The good, the bad and the ugly are all welcome!

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