Monday, 9 May 2016

The "M" Word

I've always wanted to be a mom. When I was a little girl I always played with dolls, tried to "mother" younger kids and imagined a house full of kids. A couple of decades later I'm lucky enough to see my dreams coming true. The thing with dreams is that they aren't always perfect and sometimes there are some bumps in the road.

Being a mom is the most rewarding thing that I've ever done and I love my son more than anything but some days it is HARD and some days it SUCKS. There is nothing more tedious than preparing three meals a day and then see all three of them thrown on the floor. Diaper changes are full wrestling matches in our house and always end in tears.

And just when I'm on the brink Henry will give me a hug, rest his head on my shoulder or flash a big smile and all is right in the world. 

While I always knew that I would fiercely love my child but I didn't anticipate the sense of fear that would come with being a parent. The world is a scary place and I want to protect Henry for as long as possible. It's such a balancing act between protecting him and sheltering him and every day I hope the choices that I'm making are the right ones. There's no handbook on parenting and while I embrace the amazing village that surrounds me, my husband and I are shaping this tiny person and I just hope that we're setting him up for success.

I look back to Mother's Day last year and I was a bit of a postpartum mess. My hormones were everywhere, I was pumping 8 (!!) times a day and my body was a wreck. This year I am much more confident and realized that it is okay to share the load (hello, part-time nanny!). One thing has stayed the same though, being a mom is the best thing to ever happen to me.

Wishing you all a beautiful Mother's Day. Extra special thoughts go to those who are still waiting for their bundle of joy!

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